Thursday, November 30, 2006



Wanna watch mindless entertainment? Watch Dhoom 2...

  • Sexy Bips...
  • Sexy Ash (would have preferred Amrita Rao to her... Ash cannot act)
  • Hot, unshaven Abhishek
  • Hot and oh, so sexy Hrithik
  • Irritating Uday
  • Flying stunts (Can be digested if you are a Hrithik fan)
  • Ok kinds script
  • Nothing gr8 songs
  • Undigestable coincidences
  • Amazing smooch of Hrithik and Ash (Why do people talk while smooching in the movies?)
  • Hated it when the bitch, Ash shoots Hrithik
  • Loved it when Hrithik is still alive and as naughty as ever
  • Dont know why they had to show Abhishek in the end, the impact would have been more if they would have left some loose ends
I was supposed to watch it in the theatre, but could not get the tickets... couldnt have been happier. I cannot watch bad movies in a theatre... I have no qualms about sleeping during the movie.
Watch Dhoom 2 at your peril. You wont be missing much if you dont catch it. Hrithik should stick to Rakesh Roshan's movies... I loved him in Krrish.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006


The puurfect song to propose a girl:

Artist: Enrique
Song: Hero


(Whispered) Let me be your hero

Would you dance if I asked you to dance?
Would you run and never look back
Would you cry if you saw me crying
Would you save my soul tonight?

Would you tremble if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh oh please tell me this
Now would you die for the one you love?
Hold me in your arms tonight?

(Chorus)
I can be you hero baby
I can kiss away the pain
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away

Would you swear that you'll always be mine?
Would you lie would you run and hide
Am I in toodeep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care you're here tonight

Chorus

I just want to hold you (2x)
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
Well I don't care you're here tonight

Chorus (2x)

You can take my breath my breath away
I can be your hero
Some nightmares are never over. Even when the ghosts are gone, the memories haunt... or maybe news about the ghosts... They may have changed you and broken your spirit... you may have stopped trusting people in general.. you may envy people their devil-may-care attitude... and yet, some or the other incidents keep reminding you about it.... even though all you want to do is forget...
You were not even at fault, unless trusting someone and wearing your heart on your sleeve is a fault.
Life is not fair... We are dragged into situations we have never even dreamed of.
I have hurt someone unconsciously, and as soon as I realized that, I apologized... but yet I am the source of her anger... I understand that she is looking for someone to blame and who better than me? I am a stranger, after all. But what about me? I was dragged between 2 people through no fault of mine... She would have spent her entire life trusting a bastard if it were not for me...
I am glad I did the right thing and it did take a lot of guts. I did it on an impulse... someone tactful or practical would never have dealt with it the way I did. I know I am right and thats all that matters.
I just hope someday when she has come to terms with her pain, she passes the blame to the one who actually deserves it instead of me.

Monday, November 27, 2006

Porn-Corn

Me: Hi, who is Shaqila (hope I have spelt that correctly)?

F: You dont know Shaqila? She is a famous South-indian porn star

Me: This may come as a culture shock to you, but I dont watch porn. Anyway, she must be quite ugly.

F: Have you never ever watched porn? She is ugly, with thunder thighs and all... but somehow, guys like her

Me: Yuck, disgusting. I have watched porn, but it repels me... it is so so...umm... so

F: Mechanical?

Me: Yeah, egg-actly.. mechanical. The other day AS was telling me about the stages in porn-watching.

F: There are stages?

Me: I guess so...

Stage 1: Guy will watch any sort of porn without discrimination... even peek-e-boo will do... even the most disgusting porn will generate interest
Stage 2: He will become selective... since he knows what he likes.... wont waste his time on stuff he does not like
Stage 3: He will watch only celebrity porn... from Bipasha to Britney...
Stage 4: He will start watching real-life porn... MMS scandals, wardrobe mal-function...
Stage 5: The final stage where he attains Nirvana.... he loses interest in porn... it is all "Been there, done that" for him...

F: Interesting.


Artist: Robbie Williams and Nicole Kidman

Song: Something Stupid


I know I stand in line
Until you think you have the time
To spend an evening with me
And if we go someplace to dance
I know that there's a chance
You won't be leaving with me

Then afterwards we drop into a quiet little place
And have a drink or two
And then I go and spoil it all
By saying something stupid
Like I love you

I can see it in your eyes That you despise the same old lines You heard the night before
And though it's just a line to you
For me it's true
And never seemed so right before

I practice every day to find some clever
lines to say
To make the meaning come through
But then I think I'll wait until the evening
gets late
And I'm alone with you

The time is right
Your perfume fills my head
The stars get red
And oh the night's so blue
And then I go and spoil it all
By saying something stupid
Like I love you
I love you...

Sunday, November 26, 2006

When we learn a new language, we enter a new world.. the sight, sound, taste, feel of things change.
I can speak Hindi, English, Gujarati and Sindhi. I think in English.
For example, take an onion. In Gujarati, it is called kanda... an image of a small onion oval in shape flashes in my mind.
In Sindhi, it is called bhasar... an image of a large, round onion flashes in my mind.
In Hindi, well, I cannot even remember what it is called in Hindi.
Out of the four languages, Sindhi is the only one I cannot read and write and I am ashamed of it 'coz it is my mother tongue. My granny tried to teach me when I was in school but it was too difficult and I gave up. Someday, I will learn it... I hope it wont be too late to enter another world then.
These days, Sindhi families living in the metros are switching to Hindi. They are trying to move away from the tag of being a "Sindhi". Very few Sindhi youngsters can understand or speak their mother tongue. They are ashamed of their culture. Even I dont know about the troubles my grandparents went through when they came to India during partition. Some people label me as "Pakistani" even though my grandparents shifted to India during partition and not later. It pricks, 'coz I am patriotic. I love my country and will never leave it.

I watched Sense and Sensibility and loved it... I am a big Jane Austen fan... have read most of her books... my fav is Pride and Prejudice. I love classics; Little Women, Gone with the wind etc. The stories are so real and touching, the characters, so believable. Some of my fav things about classics:
  • The pretty gowns, with corsets and all... It must be quite a bother wearing so many clothes but they look; oh, so awesome.
  • The horses and carriages: love the sound they make, gallop gallop, trot trot
  • The men: the distinguished and good looking men...
  • The dance: it is so wierdly graceful
  • But the best of all: the etiquette, mannners... If I was born in such a world, I would be a complete misfit.
I love Hugh Grant... I love him even when he is acting like a bastard (Bridget Jones Diary), but he is so adorable in the lovey-dovey movies... looks so vulnerable that any woman would love to be in love with him.
Life plays wierd games... all this while, not a drop on this parched earth and then, when it rains... it showers.

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Proof of my creativity???

What happens when you cannot retain what you learn in class.. and then you do not bother to read up before the next class... and as luck would have it, the Prof gives a surprise quiz:



Another of my all time fav songs....

Artist: Bryan Adams Lyrics

Song: Baby When You're Gone



I've been wandering around the house all night
wondering what the hell to do
Yeah, I'm trying to concentrate but all I can think of is you
well the phone don't ring 'cause my friends ain't home
I'm tired of being all alone
Got the tv on 'cause the radio's playing
songs that remind me of you

Baby when you're gone, I realize I'm in love
days go on and on, and the nights just seem so long
Even food don't taste that good, drink ain't doing what it should
things just feel so wrong, baby when you're gone

I keep driving up and down these streets
trying to find somewhere to go
Yeah i'm looking for a familiar face, but there's no one I know
oh, this is torture, this is pain, it feels like I'm gonna go insane
I hope you're coming back real soon, 'cause i don't know what to do

Baby when you're gone, I realize I'm in love
days go on and on, and the nights just seem so long
Even food don't taste that good, drink ain't doing what it should
things just feel so wrong, baby when you're gone

Baby when you're gone, I realize I'm in love
days go on and on and the nights just seem so long
Even food don't taste that good, drink ain't doing what it should
things just feel so wrong, baby when you're gone
When was the last time you sat with an acquaintance and asked him/her... "Tell me about yourself". I personally hate this question, 'coz I dont like talking about myself. But I like to hear the other person's reply... what is he/she going to talk about?

When was the last time you held someone's hand? 4 years back when I was going through personal hell, my friend had just listened to me and held my hand. I was touched, still remember what it felt like. It seemed so easy and natural. I wanted to do that today, but something held me back. I didnt know expressing how you feel can be so difficult.

All in all, life is good (touchwood)... hope it only gets better.

Thursday, November 23, 2006

My theme song: It is so so so purrfect...

Song: I am a bitch, I am a lover

I hate the world today
You're so good to me
I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you
But you look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
Must have been relieved to see
The softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
All rolled into one

Chorus:
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

So take me as I am
This may mean
You'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that
When I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won't mean a thing

Chorus

Just when you think, you got me figured out
The season's already changing
I think it's cool, you do what you do
And don't try to save me

Chorus

I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way
Few weeks back, AS passed me a note:
"Why havent you mentioned about Update on your blog?" I dont usually discuss what I write on my blog, so I didnt reply to the note. Update... Update is the official magazine of TAPMI released during convocation. It covers all the events. Last year, a separate team was formed to bring out the new issue of Update. The team was formed on voluntary basis... the senies were asked to recommend the junies. Shake and Arun were part of the team, they were in AAF and so was I... so they suggested my name. This is how it went.

Shake: I have recommended your name for Update... are you interested?
Me (barely concealing my excitement): Yes... of course... Yippie... cool
Shake: but I am not sure. Dionysia (inter-section drama competition... flagship event of AAF) is coming up and Update requires a lot of work. What if you neglect AAF 'coz of Update?
Me: Never, I wont... I promise. Plz plz let me be a part of Update
Shake: I am warning you.... I am senie, if I think you are neglecting AAF, I can get you kicked out... I will kick your a**
Me: Acha baba, ab dhamkana band karo...

And I was a part of Update. And no, I did not neglect AAF... Update was a test of my professionalism and will power... for very personal reasons. Now I am a senie member of Update... we are a good team... some enthu, some not-so enthu... but everyone is dedicated. We will be recruiting the junies soon... who will take intiative next year.

Why do the cutest guys turn out to be gay?????

Artist: George Michael Lyrics

Song: Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go Lyrics



You put the boom-boom into my heart
You send my soul sky high
When your loving starts
A jitterbug into my brain
It goes a bang-bang
Till my feet do the same

But something's bugging me
Something ain't right
My best friend told me what you did last night
You left me sleeping in my bed
I was dreaming but I should have been with you instead

Chorus:
Wake me up before you go-go
Don't leave me hanging on like a yo-yo
Wake me up before you go-go
I don't wanna miss it when you hit that high
Wake me up before you go-go
'Cos I'm not planning on going solo
Wake me up before you go-go
Take me dancing tonight

You put the grey skies out of my way
You make the sun shine brighter than Doris Day
Turned a bright spark into a flame
My beats per minute never been the same

'Cos you're my lady
I'm your fool
It makes me crazy when you act so cruel
Come on baby lets not fight
We'll go dancing
Everything will be alright

Chorus:

Cuddle up baby, move in tight
We'll go dancing tomorrow night
It's cold out there but it's warm in bed
They can dance
We'll stay at home instead

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Yawn... yawn... GrandScam, oops... I mean, BrandScan has had a lasting effect. (BrandScan is the market research fair of TAPMI). For the last one week, we were up till 2 am working (painting, cutting, pasting etc).

Some of its after-effects:
  • I sleep during the day and keep awake all night
  • Cant stand the sight of a proper meal... have been surviving on curd for the last 2 days
  • Junk food makes me pukish
  • Any food is undesirable
  • I think I may have lost a teeny-weeny bit of weight... Nope, dont you dare comment on this one unless it is a positive comment
  • The dagger of placements is closer to my neck... and I am really tensed
  • Got to interact with the junies (damn good bunch, I must add)... few more people to wish "Hi, Bye"

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

I am tired... so, so, so tired. Everything is changing and it is difficult for me to keep pace with it. I just want atleast one constant, atleast one thing which will last forever... one thing I can always always rely on. I do get bored easily, very easily... but I am still craving for security... Life is moving too fast for me... and I hate it when I cannot control my life.
Sometimes I wonder if I have become to distrustful. I dont believe a word of what most people say. I expect them to lie, trick me, decieve me... sure, I do have good friends... but a lot of times, my trust has been broken... and I keep expecting it to happen again...
I specially distrust those who sweet talk... I dont believe in connections or coincidences... I dont think people can be nice without a reason. It would be great if it could go like this:

Him: Hi... Since you like it direct, I just want to play around with you. Are you game?
Me: Naah... I am not. I have better things to do... maybe some other time, when I am jobless
Him: yeah, well.. thats ok. I will find someone else. Thanks for not wasting my time.
Me: No problemo...

If only life were that simple.

On my jukebox: Goodbye from Alicia Keys (What a perfect perfect song for a miserable day)

Mhmn bye bye

How do you love someone
That hurts you oh so bad
With intentions good
Was all he ever had

But how do I let go when I've
Loved him for so long and I've
Given him all that I could
Maybe love is a hopeless crime
Giving up what seems your lifetime
What went wrong with something once so good

How do you find the words to say
To say goodbye
If your heart don't have the heart to say
To say goodbye

I know now I was naïve
Never knew where this would lead
And I'm not trying to take away
From the good man that he is

But how do I let go when I've
Loved him for so long and I've
Given him all that I could
Was it something wrong that we did
Because others infiltrated
What went wrong with something once so good

How do you find the words to say
To say goodbye
If your heart don't have the heart to say
To say goodbye

Is this the end are you sure
How should you know when you've never been here before
It's so hard to just let go
When this is the one and only love I've ever known

So how do you find the words to say
To say goodbye
If your heart don't have the heart to say
To say goodbye



One of my fav fav songs... a voice which peps me up... Ronan Keating, the love of my life.

"I Love It When We Do"

I love it when we do what we [x2]

Ahahahaaaaaaaaaaaa [x3]

When you're around the sun is always shining
And since we met I haven't once stopped smiling
The love I feel for you is almost blinding yeah

I'm running up and down the street
Hugging everyone I meet
Now you love me life is sweet
When I got you in my arms
I can't turn off the fire alarms yeah

I love it when we do what we do

because we do what we do till it's done
I love the way we do what we do

because we do what we do and it's fun

you're the one

When you're around my eyes will never wander
And there ain't no-one else I've ever been more fonder of
So baby don't you break this spell I'm under yeah

When I look into your eyes I don't have to fantasize
You're a dream that's realised
I'm dancing on the moon inside
If life is cruel then someone lied

I love it when we do what we do

because we do what we do till it's done
I love the way we do what we do

because we do what we do and it's fun

you're the one

I dig it when we kiss and we hug and you're cuter than a bug in a rug my love

When you and me
no to end to us
It makes me cry
It makes me trust

repeat chorus [x2]

When you and me
taste so sweet
It makes me cry
It makes me trust

Monday, November 20, 2006

Flashback: More than a year ago

A phone call from a recent acquaintance:

Him: Hi, what are you doing?
Me: going to the mess for dinner.... why?
Him: Ok, meet me in 20 mins, I was at CCD and got you a brownie, lets share it.
Me: What? Where? Hello... hello???

25 mins later:

Two of us sitting in the campus and trying to split the brownie in half... What did we talk??? No idea, I just remember him saying : "I wonder what is beyond that wilderness"
Hmm.. I wondered too...

Next morning: 7.30 am:

A phone call from the acquaintance
Him: Wake up, you said you wanted to go for a morning walk... sorry for waking you so late.
Me: Thats ok... you wont believe where I am.
Him: Tell me
Me: Remember when you said "I wonder whats beyond the wilderness"... well, I got curious and I walked here... this place is beautiful... there is the moon on one part of the sky and the sun on the other part... You have to check it out
Him: Cool, I will call you at 5 and you can show it to me.

7 pm: Half way to the place
Him: Damn, it is dark... I am sorry I got late. Are you sure this is the way?
Me: Damn sure... I am good with roads... Do you think it is ok to go there now?
Him: Well, now that we are here, we might as well go on...

7.05 pm:
Me: this is the place...
Him: Wow... it is beautiful even in the dark. Are those fireflies? The houses are so rustic, gives it a nice look.

Sometime later:
Me: Whats the time??
Him: Lemme check... it is 11 pm
Me: What??? Already? I thought it might by 9 or something. Shit... we better hurry...
Him: Relax, your hostel is barely 5 mins away... we will be there by 11:20 max...

Thats how we discovered the "Hillside".
Recent pics of Hillside:






"But the restless Mercurial mind can too easily overlook the bluebird of happiness waiting wistfully year after year in his own backyard. He wears yellows, greens and blues, silver and gray -- and his moods reflects his glittering aquamarine jewel. He has the light touch, echoed in the delicate fragrance of the lily-of-the-valley, and he has breathed the fresh promise of the greenest ferns in the deepest part of the forest. But the cold metal of mercury divides Gemini into twin desires, until he stops -- and waits -- and listens -- to his own heartbeat"

-- Sun Signs by Linda Goodman

I did not believe this till I found my bluebird waiting for me in my backyard. What took me so long to recognize it?
Highlight of the day: My new book shelf...



---A pic by an old acquaintance, Abhishek Jain (Ahmedabad)


Sunday, November 19, 2006

Sometimes in life, we come across a world completely different from ours... a world we have only read about, seen on tv, heard of happening to someone else, thought about, wondered how it would feel if we were a part of it.... so, how does it feel when we come face-to-face with it? when we realise that we can be a part of that?
I have never felt happier to be who I am... I had a secure childhood. Even though I was in a hostel all my life, my parents were one phone call away. Since there were no good schools in my hometown, they had to send me away... but at no point of time, I have ever felt neglected by them... I have been given the freedom to lead my life in my own way...
How many can boast of such security and independence?

Friday, November 17, 2006

Here are the pics of my fav place in Manipal... I call it "Hillside"






Thursday, November 16, 2006

I read this on Gunjan's blog and have to put it here:











Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Few years back a friend was narrating his break up.

Him: My aunt is a psychiatrist and I would study in her clinic. I could concentrate better. I met her at the clinic. She was a patient. Her bf had dumped her and hurt her terribly. We got talking and one thing led to another... Then, one fine day, without any reasons she dumped me.... just like that. I still dont know why she did that.
Me: Hmm... seems to me like she was on a rebound and needed somebody... Well, she could have dumped you much later and then it would be more difficult to get over her. But tell me one thing, I can see why she fell for you. Why did you fall for her.... I mean, what is lacking in your life, which need is unfulfilled that you sought refuge in her.
Him: Interesting... I never thought about that.

Everything we do is based on a need... we have to identify the need... it could be the need for company, appreciation, money etc. Consciously and unconsciouly we tend to move on after our need is over. Sounds very selfish, I know.... but look deeper and question yourself...

Love is a need too... a need for company, a need to be accepted, a need to be appreciated...

I had read somewhere that people get married because they are looking for someone who acts as evidence to their life... meaning, we all want someone who can remember who we were, who we are and who we will ultimately become.

Highlight of the week: Someone trying to make up for being so busy. It is easy to meet someone's expectations, but how many of us can do the unexpected and make someone's day?

Decision to be made: I can either get bugged and not involve myself in any of the activities and consider them a waste of time OR I can help out, have fun and just chill...
Hmm... decision made: I will pitch in, have fun and chill out...

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

After spending 1.5 yrs in a B-school I can smell a person's specialisation:

Finance guys:
The geeks... the hardworkers... they have their head buried in books all the time. They are the silent ones, the uncool ones... they work, work and work... Believe in minding their own business and are the most helpful ones. Any added assignment, specially in fin, cheers their life.

Marketing guys:
The talkers... the cool ones... they believe they can get away with anything and they usually do. They talk their way out of situations... Kotler is their guru. Nothing is impossible for them. Assignments??? Haa... no hurry, whats are last moments for?

HR guys:
The politicians... loved by everyone... they have the right things to say. The girls are usually pretty, know how to use their charms and talk well. They love people and have a soothing presence. Trust? Well, do that at your own peril.
There are 2 kinds of people:
1) People who dont give a damn about their weight.
2) People who give a damn about their weight

How often have you heard the remark; "You have gained/lost weight".
Now, if I dont care, this remark means nothing at all... it just irritates me. I am like; "I dont care what you think. Keep your opinions to yourself"

If I care, I am like; "I know that. Why the hell do you want to remind me about it?"
The most amazing thing is how these remarks are always from someone who doesnt even remotely have the "perfect" figure.

Number of times I have listened to the song "Listen to my heartbeat" by Bombay Vikings within an hour: 5 times....
Number of times I intend to listen to the above song/day: atleast 10 times....
Yeah, I am addicted.
The other day Kadu was removing his frustration on me:

Kadu: I dont get it. You know all guys are creeps, then why complain? You girls have a definition about creeps... for you, creeps=guys. I mean, is it my fault I am made this way. How can you expect me to change? For you girls; practical, sex, unemotional, selfish etc is bad.... then I am bad. What can I do about it???

This got me thinking. Have women (specially the feminists) defined creeps as guys, so that they can pretend to be victims and make guys feel guilty about being who they are?
Are we (women) that smart???
I was reading a book on Godhra riots... I was in A'bad when they occurred. I had seen people burning the shops (I was stupid enough to be out on the streets that day) and was shocked to my very core to read about the inhumanity. How can human beings be so inhuman? I just dont get it. I stopped reading half way... could not go on... it was too terrible. And to think that all this happened in one of my fav places... A'bad.
I have stopped reading books on partition, I cannot come to terms with the fact that normal humans are capable of such cruelty and insanity.
All the time, I have people around who try to change me... I know it happens with everyone. I am not perfect and I dont want to be. Who do I trust? The traits I am expected to imbibe are the ones present in the one who is demanding the change from me. What if I do not want to be like him/her? What if I want to lead my life in a different manner? What makes people such an expert on others? If only they knew what others think about them. We are all in the same boat... at the end of the day you are as popular/unpopular, have as many friends/enemies, are as much respected/disrespected as I am... So, why should I change? I have changed, but only on the basis of the feedback of people I trust and they are few and far between... People who have no ulterior motives for changing me... People who are not advising me so that I may become more like them. I am going to be just the way I am... and I am the only one who is going to decide what needs to be changed.

Sunday, November 12, 2006


Some unanswerable questions:
  • Why is that some of the most perfect things in our life suddenly seem so imperfect?
  • Why do we never forgive the people who are not around when we really need them?
  • Why is there no limit to our expectations?
  • Why are we most vulnerable when we can least afford to be?
  • What if everything you have been working for is actually not worth it?
  • How do you move on (something you have been trying to do for 1.5 yrs) finally and not realise it?
  • How does the most important person in your life become the most unimportant?
  • Why all the questions... why all the loneliness... why all the sentiments ???

On my jukebox: Listen to my heartbeat by Bombay Vikings.... 6 years back when this song was released, I used to play it over and over and over again for days... How things have changed since then. Hmm... and again it has cheered me up... Aah, the power of music.

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Have you ever started your day waiting for it to end? My saturdays are usually like that.... As soon as the day begins, I wait for it to end... every class is a hurdle I have to cross and reach the horizon (in my case, the weekend)... Before every class I am tempted to bunk, but I plod on... trying to keep my eyes open... trying to absorb something into my overflowing brain. And when it is 5 pm and I am on my way back to the hostel, there is a triumphant smile... I am proud of myself and exhausted. I wait to arrive in my room, laden with lemons, books, food etc. and relax.... Hmmm.... Zzz...zzz...zzz...

Friday, November 10, 2006

I am reading the book "Positioning" By Al Ries and Jack Trout. I dont usaully read management books.. they bore me. But this one has me hooked. It was recommended by HRS. Thanks, buddy. Some of the lines I really like:

"Two people must meet in a situation in which both are receptive to the idea. Both must have open windows. That is, neither is deeply in love with someone else.
If you want to be successful in love or in business, you must appreciate the importance of getting into the mind first.
You build loyalty in a supermarket the same way you build mate loyalty in a marriage. You get there first and then be careful not to give them a reason to switch."

"You see what you expect to see"

"Old wrestling expression: You can't get pinned when you're on top" (No.. no... he means it in the clean sense... you pervert)

"Shakespeare was wrong. A rose by any other name would not smell as sweet"


Wednesday, November 08, 2006

I fainted with happiness yesterday when I heard this:
Me: A1, what classes do we have tom? I have misplaced my schedule
A1: Here it is... how many classes do we have tom?
Me: Umm... I think something is wrong with my eyes... we dont seem to have classes tom
A1: WHAT???????? You sure? Not possible, yaar... Ohmiod!!! No classes tom... lets celebrate.

Yeah... 2nd day of no classes... I have been listening to hindi pop songs on raaga.com all morning. Some of my favorites are:
  • Mausam by Mehnaaz... I think this is her best song
  • Raat Shabnami by Asha Bhonsle.... I love, love, love this song
  • Oova oova by Anaida... The video is too song, Atul Agnihotri looks hot
  • All songs by Viva... I really like their songs
You wont believe the song I am listening to right now: Chaloo girl by Devang Patel. It is spoof on songs like Barbie girl and Mambo No 5. Devang Patel is a hot fav in Gujarat. During my cultfest in 3rd year of engg, I was a part of the design team and was aware of the plans for the cultfest. The committee was trying to rope in Purple Rain for a performance. Guess who actually performed: Devang Patel... thankfully, I had not turned up for cultfest... I was spared the torture. Miss my college days... Life was good... you could do anything you wanted... Nothing was impossible. We walk in class half hour late... bunk all the boring classes... waited for the geeks to finish assignments so that we could copy them... made glass copies of all sheets... except in the final semester, I have glass copied every sheet of mine... Aah, how I have changed now... or, have I? If I was to go back to college... I would do these again... so, I guess deep down I am still the same.... and will always be.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

I met Khushi in school. She used to be my best friend's (Harry) irritating younger sis. At times, I had to compete with Khushi for Harry's attention. She is just 2 years younger to me. We became friends 2 yrs back... both of us were taking CAT and we got close. I used to spend a lot of time at her house... and started liking her... Some things about her:
  • She is the most talkative person I know... I mean, I know a lot of people who talk a lot... but nobody, absolutely nobody can beat her.
  • Is one of the most bubbly people I know... she loves to laugh and her giggles can be heard miles away
  • Is superficial.. oh yeah, she is too superficial for words... but innocent at the same time. The combo is irresistible.
  • Has a good heart... she does not play games or politics...
  • Is a good flirt.... She has a new crush almost everyday... and she likes to describe each one in detail.
  • She is smart, good-looking, insensitive (yeah yeah... she aint the sensitive kinds), sensible...
This is how it goes:
Khushi: And he is so so cute... we give each other looks... but while working, I pretend like I am not aware he is around..
Me: wait, who is this guy? I thought you like that guy in coll
Khushi: Oh oh... he is not around right now... c'mon... this is my new crush
Me: Ok, how many crushes are you having? I have only 5 mins... you better finish your story soon
Harry: and then they he asked her out... and she said she is busy
Khushi: what is wrong with you? I am supposed to tell her... IN DETAIL
Me: Hehehhe... Harry, how many times have you heard this story already?
Harry: This is the 5th time...
Khushi: So? You have to hear it again... yeah, so this is what happened.... blah blah blah

Why a post dedicated to her? 'Coz she is going through some crap in her life... and I feel protective about her... she can make me laugh... make my life simpler... she is like a younger sis and I cannot see her sad... I cannot see tears in her eyes... she is too special for that.
Hi... I received some bad news the other day and made the following distress call to my support system.

Me: Hi... Dadaji passed away 3 days back. I just got to know. Mom was too busy to inform me. I wasnt really close to him and after dadiji's death a year back, we had been expecting it. I am just sorry for dad. He is not keeping well. After the heart problem, he has become weak... I feel so helpless. I am supposed to be at home right now...
Lolo: But you know you cannot be home... Few more months and then you will be home
Me: But then again I will have to shift to another city for work. I think I should just take up any job I get at A'bad
Lolo: For how long?
Me: I dont know
Lolo: What about when you get married and have to leave home?
Me: I dont know... maybe I can stick around and postpone marriage and all till my brother finishes his studies
Lolo: You think he will stay at home? What if he gets a job in another city? You think your parents will shift?
Me: No, they wont... and we cannot stay at home... What do I do?
Lolo: See, your parents are not that weak. If they can take care of you, they can very well take care of themselves. What you can do is keep in touch. Dont be the reason for their troubles. Be there. You dont have to be around all the time. But try and be there when they need you. Ok? Dont worry... they will be fine. This is one dilemma facing so-called "Modern India". Do you disagree with me?
Me: No, I dont... Makes sense... But...

Is the joint family concept better? What is the solution to this dilemma? What is my responsibility as a daughter towards my parents? What do I do about my guit feeling?
Things like these get me through my drab life out here:

Kadu: U r the fren, man
Me: Thats 'coz you are the fren
Kadu: your ear is important to me... so is your uncalled for advice
Me: Uncalled for? Thats it??? Its just about my ear?? How insulting!!!
Kadu: Hehehehe... Thats 'coz ear is the only organ i think about in a non perverse fashion
Me: Oooh... interesting!!!

Saturday, November 04, 2006

I came across this on Tanuj's blog... and I have to put it here... quite inspirational, I must say.
Some of the one-liners from Dilbert...

1. I can only please one person per day. Today is not your day. Tomorrow is not looking good either.

2. I love deadlines. I especially like the whooshing sound they make as they go flying by.

3. Tell me what you need, and I'll tell you how to get along without it.

4. Accept that some days you are the pigeon and some days the statue.

5. Needing someone is like needing a parachute. If he isn't there the first time, chances are you won't be needing him again. (So damn true)

6. I DON'T HAVE AN ATTITUDE PROBLEM, YOU HAVE A PERCEPTION PROBLEM.

7. Last night I lay in bed looking up at the stars in the sky, and I thoughtto myself, "where the heck is the ceiling?"

8. My reality cheque bounced.

9. On the keyboard of life, always keep one finger on the escape key.

10. I don't suffer from stress. I am a carrier.

11. You are slower than a herd of turtles stampeding through peanut butter. (awesome abuse)

12. Do not meddle in the affairs of dragons, because you are crunchy and taste good with ketchup.

13. Everybody is somebody else's weirdo.

14. Never argue with idiots. They drag you down to their level, then beat you with experience. (Good one)

15. A pat on the back is only a few inches from a kick in the butt.

16. Don't be irreplaceable. If you can't be replaced, you can't be promoted.

17. After any salary raise, you will have less money at the end of the month than you did before. 18. The more crap you put up with, the more crap you are going to get. (very true)

19. You can go anywhere you want if you look serious and carry a clipboard.

20. Eat one live toad the first thing in the morning and nothing worse will happen to you the rest of the day.

21. If it wasn't for the last minute, nothing would get done.

22. When you don't know what to do, walk fast and look worried. (Is that why I walk so fast?)

23. Following the rules will not get the job done.

24. When confronted by a difficult problem, you can solve it more easily by reducing it to the question, "How would the Lone Ranger handle this?"

25. Only the mediocre are at their best all the time.

26. There's a fine line between genius and insanity. I have erased this line.

27. Bring ideas in and entertain them royally, for one of them may be the king.

28. If at first you don't succeed......skydiving isn't for you.

29. Life is a waste of time; time is a waste of life, so get wasted all of the time and have the time of your life.

30. When everything is coming your way......you're in the wrong lane

Yippie... I got time...

Got time to eat,
Got time to sleep,
Got time to think,
Got time to dream,
Got time for friends,
Got no time for enemies,
Got time for acquantainces,
Got time for family,
Got time for music,
Got time for me,
Got time for you,
Got time for blogging.

Even though it is only a few hours, I have time today... time to relax, put up my feet and read, blog, listen to music, read... Feels good... feels like I deserve it after so long. There are lesser classes next week... I can catch up on my reading... Life aint that bad!!!

I dont know why people dont update their blog more often... it is so disappointing to visit someone's blog expecting to read about their life and not find anything... There are a lot of people who are silent readers... they dont comment, just think about what you have written.

Smile, an everlasting smile... a smile can bring you near to me. Dont ever let me find you've gone, 'coz that would bring a tear to me. This world has lost its glory, lets start a brand new story, now my love. You'd think that I dont even mean a single word I say... Its only words and words are all I have to take your heart away.
Talk in everlasting words and dedicate them all to me, and I will give you all my life, I am here if you should call to me. You'd think that I dont even mean a single word I say... Its only words and words are all I have to take your heart away.
Its only words and words are all I have to take your heart away.
Da.. da.. da... da... da... da... da... da.. da..
Da.. da.. da... da... da... da... da... da.. da..
This world has lost its glory, lets start a brand new story. You'd think that I dont even mean a single word I say... Its only words and words are all I have to take your heart away.
Its only words and words are all I have to take your heart away.
Its only words and words are all I have to take your heart away.

My all time fav song since I first heard it (in 9th std I think)... I fell in love with Ronan Keating after that. Even now, his voice sends a shiver down my spine.

When I read books, I think about the author... how much does he believe in what he has written. What is he like? What if I meet him tom? Will I like him? Will I be disappointed or impressed? What has he gone through in life to reach where he has? Do the words he writes hurt him? I think you have to cut yourself deep to write... you have to go through pain and torture, come to terms with your worst monsters to write about them.... Writers are the bravest people in the world...
How many of us can withstand the judgement of strangers and still stay strong and believe in ourselves? What about writers whose books are considered failures? Do they give up or keep going? How easy it is to give up and wallow in self-pity and depend on other people... and so so so so so difficult to keep going despite everything against you... how satisfying to succeed knowing you did it all... took failures in the positive sense and learned from them.

Sorry, I am getting a little philosophical here... good music does that to me and of course the fact that I am happy... dont know why... dont really have a reason but I am happy... even though someone is always always always always busy... but who am I to complain... I am busy too.
Have you ever come to a stage in life where you want to do the very things you have looked down upon?
Me: Mommy, I dont think Dad is being fair... what about your life, your needs? C'mon.
Mom: Life is about sacrifice and compromise... Your dad and I have divided responsibilities... He earns and I take care of you monsters
Me: Look, you can have a career, nobody can stop you... we will support you
Mom: Arre... Why do I need to earn? What is your dad's is mine too... you wont understand... maybe when you get married...
Me: No ways... I am going to do exactly what I like... marriage or no marriage

It is scary how some things are changing...


Friday, November 03, 2006

Hi... Got no time!!!

Got no time to eat,
Got no time to sleep,
Got no time to think,
Got no time to dream,
Got no time for friends,
Got no time for enemies,
Got no time for acquantainces,
Got no time for family,
Got no time for me,
Got no time for you,
Got no time for blogging.

Yeah... I am buzzy... too many classes; too many assignments; sleep is a luxury I cannot afford; every time friends buzz me, I reply "Busy... :( "

Tempers are running high, frustration levels are increasing.... placements are looming ahead... There is one question in everyone's mind: "Has it been worth it?"
Have the 1.5 yrs been worth all that I have lost? Do I need MBA to enter corporate life? What has been the value addition? Will I get placed? Will I get the job I seek?

A week back I had the following conversation:
Me: I dont get it, people with work ex are supposed to be more mature.
R: Why do you expect so much from work ex people? What difference does work ex make?
Me: Loads... See, when freshers enter MBA, for them it is just like college life. They make mistakes, screw up and then realise that MBA is more like corporate life and not college life. People with work ex have had a taste of corporate life. I expect them to set an example for freshers to follow... excepting a few people, work ex people are more shitty than freshers. Freshers are allowed to make mistakes, work ex people are not.
R: That is very biased... work ex makes no difference...

The ones who preach are the ones who dont practice it... Were the changes I brought in myself required at all? Was I better off earlier? What if I do not get placed in the company of my choice, will these 1.5 yrs be worth it? Have I learned anything that my job will not be able to teach me?

Questions... questions... I have to wait for little more than a month for the answers.

Forgive me if you have come to my blog expecting a new post and dont find it... I miss blogging too, but kya karen... work beckons!!!

I miss my sleep... I am not one of those lucky people who can catch 40 winks in class... No matter how hard I try, I cannot sleep in class... doze yes, but sleep no....

The book "The Goal" by Eliyahu M. Goldratt is my constant companion these days... I am reading it for the 2nd time... Last time I read it, I didnt know what bottlenecks, throughput etc were... I am enjoying it all the more this time.

Why cant we erase some events from our life and start anew? Till I was in school, I kept shifting every few years and never had to deal with the consequences of my actions... they never followed me. Have I become so used to running away and never had the time to learn how to deal with things? Are things even worth dealing with? Why should I waste my time and energy over events and people who are not at all important to me? I believe that a crack in the mirror can never be undone.... why put in efforts then? If something/someone loses its/their significance in my life, I walk out.... dont care about the consequences, dont care about the people hurt, dont care about responsibility...

If I ever get bored of blogging, I will stop.... I wont give a thought to anything or anyone else except what I want... Live for yourself, the rest will follow... The only way to be happy is to make yourself happy. If making someone else happy, makes you happy... go ahead, do it. But dont ever sell yourself short... nobody worth that much.

Yenjoy, while I try and catch my 40 winks. Forgive me for not reading your blogs and posting comments... I will catch up on them next week, for sure.

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Few more lines from 'The Bridge Across Forever' by Richard Bach.

"That's what learning is, after all: not whether we lose the game, but how we lose and how we've changed because of it and what we take away from it that we never had before, to apply to other games. Losing, in a curious way, is winning."

"Do you ever notice, after you've known someone for a while, how their appearance changes?"
'He can be the handsomest man in the world,' she said, 'but he turns plain as popcorn when he has nothing to say. And the plainest man says what matters to him and why he cares and in two minutes he's so beautiful you want to hug him!'

"Never before had she played for me, claiming that she was out of practice, too self-conscious even to uncover the keys of the instrument while I was in the room. Something had happened between us, though..... because we were lovers, now, was she free to play, or was she the teacher so desperate to help her deaf one that nothing could keep her from music?"

"Isnt it strange, the way certainty always comes before shatterings?"

"So much is habit. Once we learn an airplane, our hands and eyes know how to make it run long after our minds have forgotten. Had someone stood at the cockpit and asked how to start the engine, I couldnt have said... only after my hands finished the starting sequence could I have explained what they had done."

"Such an experiment that would be! To say hello to all the other Richards flown out ahead of me in time, to find a way to listen to what they'd say! And the alternate me's in alternate futures, the ones who made different decisions along the way, who turned left at corners I turned right, what would they have to tell me? Is their life better or not? How would they change it, knowing what they know now."

"We wonder sometimes if ever we can know our closest friend, what she thinks and feels in her heart. And then we find she's written her heart to a secret paper, clear as a mountain spring."

"So much of hearing, I thought, is listening to what we expect and tuning out the rest."

"The highest form of regard between human beings is friendship, and when love enters, friendship dies."

"Why is it that so many airplane pilots also sail boats? Airplanes have freedom in space, sailboats have freedom in time. It's not the hardware, we want, it's the unshackledness that the hardware represents."

"The depth of intimacy we feel towards another is inversely proportional to the number of others in our lives?"

"Boredom between two people doesn't come from being together, physically. It comes from being apart, mentall and spiritually"

'I don't have a need to argue,' I said. 'I dont have a need to fight.'
'How do you know?' she said softly. 'How do you know thats not the only way some lessons can get through to you? If you didnt need to fight in order to learn, you wouldnt create so many problems! There are many times I dont understand you till you're angry.... arent there time you dont know what I mean until I scream? Is there a rule that we cant learn except in sweet words and kisses?'

"Makes you realize, after days like this trying to deal with those slugs in the IRS, how good it is to sit in the desert and deal with a real honest straightforward rattlesnake!"

'We met as early as we could have met,' I said. 'Earlier than that, you know it- I would have destroyed you or run away from you or you wouldnt have had the patience, you would have walked on me, with good reason. It would never have worked; I had to learn my way through that mess. I'd never do it again, but I'm not that person anymore.'

"I was wrong. Finding her wasnt the object of my life, it was an imperative incident. Finding her allowed my life to begin."

'Did you ever feel', she said, 'that you were missing someone you had never met?'