Tentative plans for today:

Morning: Morning walk to End-point (I dont see this working out... but I will try)
Clean room, cupboards, laundry etc
Afternoon: Go to Udupi... get specs and watch repaired...
Evening: Assignments
Night: Movies

Hmm... sounds quite chill... :)

D-DAY

D-DAY Zero

D-DAY Minus 1

D-DAY Minus 2

Sometimes you are there and you wish you were not... and if you had to be there, you should be with someone else.

Some people like to party, I dont. After a tiring day, I prefer good conversation. A cup of coffee and a good conversation is the biggest turn on... no wonder it is so hard to find (the conversation, not the coffee). I like partying but only with my close friends... people I can really, really be myself with.

Exams khatam... Yippie.... Yippie... Yippie. I have not slept well in nights... keep getting these wierd dreams. The other night I dreamed that my family was taken into custody by a Muslim (No, no, I am not anti-muslim...) goonda and we escaped on a boat.... came across a boy who was about to drown and my dad saved him... it was kinda funny. The boat was shaped like a snake... I have a fascination for snakes, dont know why... maybe it is related to my past life (No, no... I dont believe in reincarnation... it is easier to believe that there is only one life to fuck up, I might as well do so royally!!!)

I hate writing exams now... dont see a point. I mean, I know what I have learned, why do I need to give a proof of my learning... I am 23 (and proud of it), for heavens sakes... at this stage in my life if I need someone motivating (using exams as a tool) me to learn, how responsible am I?
During the exam, I compete...
My Aim: To be the first one to finish (Ok, this isnt mandatory) the paper and leave... but someone always beats me to it. When I dont achieve the first spot, I aim for the 2nd or 3rd or 4th... meaning, my writing goes all crawly and unreadable while I count how many people have left... and try to beat the rest.

I am supposed to catch up on my sleep... but sleeping during the day, it feels like a waste of time... So, right now listening to amazing amazing music... chatting with an acquaintance (or rather 'was' chatting until he left for a movie)...

A lot of friends are going through break ups (the phenomenon is perennial).

Me: Another friend is going through a break up
A2: Have you noticed how fast Geminis move on?
Me: Yep... I think thats the best thing to do
A2: M not sure... I mean, what about commitment and promises of forever?
Me: There is no forever and a broken heart just teaches us to stop being foolish and sentimental. Life is too short... If something doesnt work out, I think its his loss... entirely. Have fun and chill.

(Yep... A gnawing at the back of my mind telling me: "What a joke. Have you forgotten how long it has taken you to move on? Stop pretending... Dont you still think about it and get nostalgic? You know life will never be the same... who are you kidding? Who are you trying to fool with the devil-may-care attitude?")

Everytime I come across someone (friend, foe or acquaintance) from the past, I am amazed at the bond shared with him/her. Maybe it is 'coz we have shared the past... in the form of a similar life... same school or same college... It doesnt feel wierd and talking to him/her is so easy.

Congrats, Kadu!!!

I have 2 exams tom and both are very important... got a headache 'coz of staring at the screen all evening... fell asleep at 9:30 pm with hopes of waking up at 11:00 pm, but no intentions of opening the book before 12:01 am... and then this call at 11:38 pm ruined my plans for good:

Kadu: Hey sweetie... you are a saviour. I got placed...
Me: Ohmygod, ohmygod, ohmygod... (I dont remember what I said after this)
Kadu: I am getting paid a bomb for doing what I love to do all night.
Me: (Knowing what a pervert he is, I am getting wierd ideas) But I thought you chat with me
Kadu: Yeah, but in the background I am doing other things like equity research
Me: Oh!!! And I thought what we have is exclusive... damn. Btw, I forgot to say Congrats.
Kadu: Yeah well... thanks... specially for last night. Now I have to come and meet you
Me: Oh, wow... Plz do that.

Kadu is one of my best friends. I last met him in June 2005. That was the first and last time we had gone out and it was wonderful.
Me: Hey honey, I am going out for dinner with Kadu... will be back asap.
Honey: Sure... but gimme the time.
Me: Well, I am meeting him at 7:30... so, I should be back max by 9:30 pm... How long can dinner take?
Hmm... at 11:30 pm
Me (to Kadu): hey, I think I should get back now... I would love to stay and talk all night... but I really have to go.

The best part about the dinner was:
Kadu: Here is something for you
Me (grabbing at the chocolate): Thanks... This is so sweet... and it is Kit Kat, thats my fav. How did you know its my fav?
Kadu: I didnt... I just thought gifting dairymilk is a cliche, so I got a Kit Kat.

I love the internet, it has brought me closer to so many people... but my friendship with Kadu has been really amazing... from acquaintances to best friends (He is my best friend, dont know about the other way round)... all on the net. And finally, everything he has gone through in 1.5 years has been worth it... I am so so so happy for him.

PS: He hates my blog (maybe he reads it secretly), so I will have to come up with an innovative trick to get him to read this.

Some of my fav actors

I absolutely adore him... the songs, dance, blue eyes, naughtiness...


Love all his movies... have watched most of them... Truman Show and Mask are my favorites.


One hot and sexy dude... He gives age an entirely new definition... Love his grey hair


Ok, this is kinda embarrassing... have loved him since I was a kid. It takes guts to wear yellow pants and act like an idiot. He is too funny in David Dhawan movies.



A photographer turned actor... I still remember his stint with 50-50 biscuits. He can steal the show even from Shahrukh Khan.


Have been his fan since Kaho na pyar hai... Need I say more? I love even the bad movies like muhjse dosti karogi etc etc

The chocolate boy... the most successful actor in Bollywood...


I totally admire this guy... a metrosexual...

I have loved him since "Main Khiladi Tu Anari" (specially his long hair).... He has just gotten hotter with age...

Some sweet moments in this crappy life:

Scene 1: A1's room:

Me: I am so so so so bored... have been reading all day.
A1: Thats why I ask you to attend classes...
Me: Hmm... I feel like the walls of my room are closing in on me... and I am claustrophobic
A1: So, you are bored.. huh??? (with an evil smirk on her face)
(Then I see the oil bottle in her hand.... I was trapped)
Me: Ok, ok... I will apply oil for you... See, this is the Nice Twin... Evil Twin would never have agreed to it.

Scene 2: On GTalk
N.PIR: hey

Me: hi

long time

N.PIR: ya

i hope i am not distubring

Me: no no

too bored with studies

how is work?

N.PIR: awrite

going good

got on today...after a weeks leave...

a little lazy

N.PIR: interestin blog!

:)

Me: thanks

u have not updated urs

N.PIR: am hooked!

ya man

Me: really?

thats nice to know

N.PIR: swear i am

Me: hehheheheh

my day just got good

N.PIR: which group do i fall under ?

:P

Me: hehhehhee

acquiantance?

N.PIR: :)

Me: wats PIR?

N.PIR: expect me to be a regular visitor now

Post impletmenation review

Me: wow

N.PIR: thats what my work is

Me: does it mean anything????

N.PIR: honestly NO

:)

just a jazzy name

Scene 3: In my room

A2: Hey, JD is Bhatia or Singh?
Me: I think he is Bhatia
A2: I think he is Singh
Me: Lets check it out... but how?
A2: E-mail, yaar...
Me: Ok, here it is.... Oops, he is Singh Bhatia... Stupid us... We should have bet on it
A2: Yeah, it would be like pari mutuel betting

Scene 4: On Yahoo mssngr
Kadu: You are a sick female... a guy's worst nightmare... one woman catastrophy

How crap is my life?

Your life's not bad...but you're too plain. Go explore your options. Do something new and exciting. Go start a fire, and throw yourself in it.


Hmm... interesting... Well, I have already made plans to make my life less crappy... ;)

Can this day BE any worse??? (Chandler, isstyle)... Actually, it can get worse... After all, it has just begun.
I slept at 3 am, woke up at 8.30pm. Sure, 5.5 hours is a lot of sleep.... for some people. I need atleast 7 hours. So, am sleepy but cannot sleep during the day since I kinda get insomniac at times...
Before leaving for the exam, my back started aching. It needs some massage, but that will be like a dream come true. The paper was subjective lasting for 2.5 hours... finished it in less than an hour... not 'coz I didnt know anything but am too lazy.... thought of treating myself to an orange candy but while I was receiving the change, the candy fell down... Nope, I couldnt eat it.. it was unsalvageable. I was 1 buck short and couldnt buy another one... :(
Then I lost my temper after a long time... but in my defence, I was provoked deliberately... just so that I would give some reaction... any reaction. But I am not sorry... I should be left alone when I want to be left alone...

A masterpiece

I just came across this at http://archana.blogspot.com/ and have to put it here:

1 down, 6 more to go

Let me explain... I had 9 courses running simultaneously this theme (so did most of us)... I have 7 exams spread over 5 days... finished off with one today... there are 6 more to go (incase your math is bad).
I actually did well, which is quite a surprise. Of course, my grades never depend on my performance (dont even ask why... even I dont know... I guess it is 'coz of the relative grading funda... the bastards always perform better... sigh!!!)
I had 2 more chaps to read at 1 am today but I was so tired and bored. My alarm is not working (Ok, ok... I am too lazy to change the batteries) and cel phone isnt loud enough to wake me. Earlier, my friend Bug was my human alarm. I guess he always knew he would be going to USA and followed their time zone... which worked out pretty great for me. I could rely on him to wake me anytime from 10 pm to 6 am... But then he actually shifted to USA and now, I think he follows the Indian time zone. Anyway, point is I am on the look-out for a human alarm... someone who sleeps while I am awake and is awake while I am asleep...

I have been thinking of writing about my best buddy for quite some time now, and what better time than now (when I have egg-jams looming overhead... hehehhehe, we engineers never change)... So, spotlight's on my best buddy, actually, she is my twin self.
For the Geminis, you know exactly what I am talking about... but for the uninitiated, every Gemini person is made of 2 people: the twins. Life would be hunky-dory if it were not for the fact that both are opposites... absolute opposites. That explains my confusion, indecision, double-talk, unpredictability.
Anyways, I have 2 twins (I know twins mean 2, but some Geminis have 3 or even 4 twins... ask Linda Goodman if you dont believe me).
I will introduce them: NT (Nice Twin) and ET (Evil Twin).

NT is a nice, docile, sober, garelu, religious person who wants to do good in life. She would not dream about hurting anyone. She is honest, loyal, caring and warm. She is always getting me into trouble with her good deeds and nice ways.

ET is a bitch. She has no principles and morals. She loves to have fun and is used to having her way, even if that is at the cost of someone else. She loves adventure and trying out new things. She only makes friends with people who are cool enough for her... and yeah, she is cool. She is my saviour, the one who gets me out of trouble and is my self defence against the Big Bad World (The song "Its a big, big world" is playing in my head... who is the artist, btw???)

This is a typical scene from their interaction (I would never have dreamed of using such a word before joining MBA... my vocab is completely ruined now):

ET: So, unsexy bitch, whats the plan for today?
NT: Hey, you said the "b" word... We have a date with AJ.
ET: Who is AJ? Wait a min, is he the boring, rotlu guy who calls you at night and does not get off the phone for hours??? How did we end up on a date with him?
NT: Umm... c'mon, dont be so mean... he is going through a hard time and needs a friend. While you were out killing lizards, I said "yes" when he asked me out.
ET: You said "yes"??? What the f***?
NT: I am really sorry.. but I couldnt say "No". I didnt want to hurt his feelings.
ET: What do you mean by "I couldnt say No"???? Just say "No" or "I am busy" or "Some other time" or if worse comes to worse "I have a bf and he wont approve"
NT: Umm... You know I am a bad liar, so I dont even try to lie. C'mon, he might be fun.
ET (looking daggers at NT): Well, then you go... I am not coming.
NT (devastated): What? I cannot go without you... what if he acts funny? What will I do then? Who will take care of me? What if I get bored? You cannot let me go alone... plz plz plz (sobbing now)
ET: Ok, ok.. wipe those damn crocodile tears... you are such a girl. Just 'coz I love you (and that is the only "good" thing about me), you cannot take advantage by turning on those tears. I will come along only if you promise to do as I say.
NT: Anything for you...
ET: We will do one of the following:
Option 1: Not turn up... and when he calls to find out where we are, we will tell him "I am stuck somewhere and cannot make it... sorry, maybe some other time" and there will not be "another time"....
Option 2: Turn up, sit for half an hour... I will ask J to give us a call saying there is an emergency and we have to leave. If we are bored, we leave... if we are not, we stay.
NT: I will go with option 2... that ways, I dont have to lie. I just have to repeat what J tells me on the phone and AJ gets a chance to prove that he is not boring.
ET: Good girl. And after this, I handle the wierdos and jerks and you handle the nice and cute guys. Kapish?
NT: Kapish

I have just been reading this person's post on how freaked out he is about marriage @ http://venkysays.blogspot.com/

One of the comments:
"aha!
Hey well i can relate to what uir going thru..i was in ur state too untill last yr when I got married...but by last yr I seemed quite ready for it..coz I met the right person...guess its all a matter of meeting the right person!
And hey who says u cant go bungee jumping and partyingafter marriage...i have done crazier things after marriage than before...like I said.."its abt the right person"!
All the best!:-)"

Another one says:
" hmm interesting.. How does one ever know who is the right person.. may be Anand can help... And Scary is just one part of it."

I have been wondering how does one know about the "right person"???
We want it all: passion, jokes, understanding, love, looks, sparks, maturity.
Is it possible to get it all? What if we have to compromise on one or more of them? Which one would you compromise on?
I thought I could compromise on understanding... it didnt work...
I thought I could compromise on passion... again, it didnt work.
And now I am confused...
While one part of me enjoys the sense of humor, another part is observing how unemotional he is.
While one part knows he is one person who will be around always, another part is wondering how long my interest in him will last.
While one part is flattered by his attention, another part is noticing how self-centred he is...

My nature according to Kabalarian Philosophy:

• Although your name creates the urge to be reliable and responsible, we emphasize that it limits self-expression and friendly congeniality with a moody disposition.
  
• This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the heart, lungs, bronchial area, worry, and mental tension.

• Your first name has given you a rather quiet, reserved, serious, studious nature.

• You have sensitivity and appreciation for the finer and deeper things of life, the beauties of nature, music, art, and literature.

• The people who mean the most to you are those who can offer you intellectual companionship.

• It is only when you are among those who understand your deeper nature that you can really be yourself.

• The experience of having your remarks taken lightly or belittled, particularly during the early years of your life, has caused you to keep your thoughts and feelings to yourself.

• You do not express yourself spontaneously when conversing with others; hence other people may often regard you as being aloof, and even unfriendly.

Scene 1: Class room

Me: But Sir, we have placements coming up... Please can you postpone the submissions?
Sir: No... no.... I have already given you guys enough time
Me: But, that will affect the quality of our output? What is the point then?
Me (to JD): Hey, which submission are we trying to get postponed?
JD: I am not sure... but you are on the right track.. keep going
Sir: What do you mean by placement preparation?
Me: Well Sir, we have to prepare a few courses, check out company details, profiles etc. It is a lot of work
Sir: Ok, ok... You can submit the assignment on 28th Dec.
Students: Sir, what about christmas? We will have to work on that day too. Can you postpone it till Jan?
Sir: Hmm... how about 31st dec?
Students: But Sir... New years...
Sir: 28th is the date... Those who dont submit it...
Student: Will get an extension?
Sir: hahahhaha... you guys are funny...

The Wonder Years

For the fans of "The Wonder Years"... this is the first episode... Yenjoy!!!

kill bill 1+2 in 120 seconds!!!

This is for all Kill Bill fans. I had watched this movie in 2004 on Valentine's day...
Me: Happy Valentine's
Bug: Happy Valentine's
Me: Whats the plan?
Bug: Movie and then I have to go home since mom isnt well
Me: Hmm.. ok. Which movie? It better be good... I cannot watch bad movies in the theatre
Bug: It is Kill Bill by Quentin Tarrantino. Damn good director. You will love it. Loads of violence and stuff
Me: C'mon, it is Valentine's. Can you atleast pretend to be romantic for one day during the year? No violence and all, yaar
Bug: Trust me, you will love it..
Me: How can you be so sure?
Bug: I know you...

Guess wat???? I loved loved loved the movie... It is full of blood, violence... I was on the edge of my seat... The sequel is as good. One of the few movies whose sequel lives upto its expectations. Catch the song "Bang bang" from this movie.

Kill Bill 2-Whistle

My fav whistle

Before I joined MBA, the people I knew were categorised as follows:

• Family
• Relatives
• Family friends
• Best friends
• School friends
• Tuition friends
• Boarding friends
• College friends
• Best friends from school/boarding
• Best friends from college
• Hostel friends
• Acquaintances
• Strangers

All the people I knew fell in one of the above categories... there were rarely any gray patches. Right now, my life is filled with gray... Apart from above categories, following have been added:

• 1st year Groupies
• 2nd year Groupies
• People I completely ignore
• People I discuss only work with
• People I discuss other people with
• People I discuss only personal life with
• People I discuss everything apart from work and personal life, with
  
• Acquaintances
• Strangers
• TAPMI friends
• People I hang out with: 'coz they are (or pretend to be) different from the rest (for better or for worse)
  

Hmm... I wish I could give a name for these people... I have a good discussion with so many of them in a day and yet keep wondering how I am to categorise them... where do they fit in...

Sing along: Nelly Furtado

"Say It Right"

In the day
In the night
Say it right
Say it all
You either got it
Or you don't
You either stand or you fall
When your will is broken
When it slips from your hand
When there's no time for joking
There's a hole in the plan

Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
But you got what it takes to set me free
Oh you could mean everything to me

I can't say that I'm not lost and at fault
I can't say that I don't love the light and the dark
I can't say that I don't know that I am alive
And all of what I feel I could show
You tonight you tonight

Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
But you got what it takes to set me free
Oh you could mean everything to me

From my hands I could give you
Something that I made
From my mouth I could sing you another brick that I laid
From my body I could show you a place God knows
You should know the space is holy
Do you really want to go?

Nelly Furtado: Say It Right.

Damn damn addictive... Cant get enough of it.

QOTB

A bus ride
+
Kaup beach
+
Lighthouse
+
Trying to climb down treacherous rocks
+
Sea breeze
+
Lemon and spoon race
+
3-legged race
+
Masala bun
+
Orange bar
+
Good Music
+
Friends
+
Quiz
+
Giri "pick-brain"
+
Corporate teams battling it out
+
Fire-crackers

=

QOTB (Quiz on the beach)

An event I thoroughly enjoyed from beginning to end... a much-needed break...

Right now I am in the sys lab, listening to good music with Tangy-wangy and working on Update... At the back of my mind is the thought that this is the peace before the storm. My life is going to change in the next 20 days... for better or for worse, is the question. Am I worried??? I am trying not to think about it... Dont want to feel the heat.
The time to leave is creeping near and despite everything... I have gained so much out here... I have started believing in myself like I never did earlier. I plan to go for further studies in the far future, but for the next 10 yrs... this is the last lap of college life for me... I will miss it... a lot. I have gained some gem of friends out here who will last me a lifetime... I know I will not visit TAPMI again... I dont like to look back... I believe in letting bygones be bygones. Of course, memories never let me move on competely...

Some moments:

A1, A2 and me on my way to hostel from coll... trying to flag an auto.

Me (screaming on the top if my voice): Autoooooooo......
A1: Stop screaming... he isnt going to stop. We will have to get an auto at the auto stand
Me: What the f***??? He didnt even look at me... I have never felt so unattractive in my entire life

Can we live our life in moments? Just forget everything.. friends, family, responsibility, money etc and just live in that one moment... what you do then does not count... it does not mean a thing... it is not "you"... It is like you are taking a break from being "you"... Is that possible?